When I grow up...

Ok so this is a big old vent piece!

I've been having my mightmares again so I decided to draw this a week or two ago.
When I was younger I always thought "It'll be better when I grow up, big girls don't cry!". I barely ever cried when I was younger so I thought I would never cry when I got older. God was I wrong! Keep something bottled up for nearly 10 years and there's bound to be a big problem sooner or later.
Now I'm getting things sorted out, I'm looking back on things I did and should've done to help myself.
I also thought I'd never love anybody when I was young so that's why the younger sushi is making a heart with the rope. Thr rope is to show how much I'm still attached to my messed up past.



I don't know why the colours faded so much...I'll have to take a look at the scanner settings later.